Overwhelmed...

I have been meaning to write this message for three days, but have been so busy and stuck in my head with everything going on I have put it off...writing this that is. First I need to share a verse Jake shared with me at the begging of last week (a week ago tomorrow).

Psalm 113

1 Praise the LORD. [a]
Praise, O servants of the LORD,
praise the name of the LORD.

2 Let the name of the LORD be praised,
both now and forevermore.

3 From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets,
the name of the LORD is to be praised.

4 The LORD is exalted over all the nations,
his glory above the heavens.

5 Who is like the LORD our God,
the One who sits enthroned on high,

6 who stoops down to look
on the heavens and the earth?

7 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;

8 he seats them with princes,
with the princes of their people.

9 He settles the barren woman in her home
as a happy mother of children.
Praise the LORD.



The most important part of the verse for us is the last. Going on this trip has meant trying to stop getting pregnant...which was a difficult choice. I know it was hard for Jake to stop with the fertility process, but being a women- the one who's hormones where being jacked-up- emotionally it was hard to stop. On Tuesday when we dropped stuff off at our team leaders house she asked Jake and I if we wanted to go see an orphanage with babies...not to treat but to look at adopting. She stood in between Jake and I when she asked that. I locked eyes with Jake and could feel my emotions rising, the tears rising. There was an moment of silence that seemed like forever for me and I finally said, "yeah, I guess that would be okay." So, I waited until Saturday to even tell my mother. I know and feel convicted to adopt, but part of me has had a hard time accepting that adopting may be the only way that we get to have kids. It has been very hard. So, pray that if we see a baby that we are supposed to adopt (not saying it's final or that we will come home with a child---adopting is a long expensive process) that it wont be out of my urgency to have a child or to fill that void, but rather that God would make it clear.

Three most important things to pray for:

1. That we would be safe in everything we do and everyone we come into contact with and that we would have safe travel.
2. The God would be at the forefront of everything thing that we do.
3. That our supplies would all arrive together on Monday in Haiti and that our supplies stay with us.
4. For Jake as this will be the first time practicing as a doctor (he will also have an Haitian doctor that he will be working with.)

I think my nerves have finally changed from worry to excitement. It was weird walking the dog around 5 pm tonight because Jake and I realized that at this time tomorrow we will be in Haiti. And Jake just informed me that it is 11 and we need to get up in four hours...so with that good night and we'll keep you up-dated! Thanks for your prayers and support.